Days 11-23: 4 Weeks on T and Interesting Things Are Happening

So, I've taken two shots since the last time I posted (as of today is been 4 weeks). I'm going to go ahead and apologize for that just to get it off my chest. There have been a few changes pertaining to my transition but I just have not got the time to make a post until now. There are also been quite a few changes in my personal life that are not necessarily involved in the transition.

Because this blog is supposed to be all about the transition, let's start with those changes.

Skin, Hair, and Temperature

My skin is definitely more oily than before I started T.

I have also noticed a few more sick stray hairs on my chin and jaw line that so I have not normally been there. I did not get a picture before shaving them off but I can tell you this: they were very dark and very thick. I will continue to shave until it appears that I might actually have a full growth of facial hair. Once that happens, I will probably experiment with growing it out just to see how it looks.

Meanwhile, I'm not getting nearly as cold as I usually do with the air conditioner on this time of year. As hot as it's been, though, I don't see how anyone could be cold even with the air conditioner on. Our new air-conditioner, installed last year, At work is incredibly cold. Before I started taking T, are used to have to put on a long sleeve shirt just to withstand the cold. After T, i've been stripping down to my binder a lot. It doubles as a tank top, so I'm not indecent or anything. LOL

This is new for me because I am always, always cold.

Growing Pains?!

This last week and a half has been pretty painful. Shortly after my last post here, I started aching all over my body. This wasn't like the pain I usually have in my neck from the arthritis. I vaguely remember this kind of pain as growing pains from when I was quite a bit younger.

No one really told me that there would be a pain and aching throughout my muscles, joints, and bones. But there is. Ibuprofen helped.

It makes sense though, right? If my body is changing as if it's going through puberty why would I not have growing pains that go along with going through puberty?

Overall the aches and pains are not that bad. They are slightly annoying, kind of like when my body is so stressed it won't relax. Still, is a small price to pay to feel more at home in my body.

My First Period on T (and other sexual things)

Really, though, what else do I actually call this section?
Disclaimer: If you do not wish to hear about some bodily functions that are sexual in nature, SKIP THIS SECTION. I will try not to go into a lot of detail, but I feel it's important to share as much as I can. Alternately, if you have questions about more detail, I am willing to talk one-on-one.
So, this last week, my period happened (menstrual period for those of you unsure). Some reading this might get jealous but I have never had bad cramps with my periods before. This time it was different. I was doubled over in pain several times for the first 2 days. It also lasted longer and I'm guessing it was because my body is starting to wonder what's up. There's conflicting hormones in here now.

Has anyone else been through this already? I'd be interested to hear how your periods were during this time.

In one of my previous posts I talked about the side effects of T. I mentioned that the sex drive was suppose to increase. Well, this past week it finally happened. Over the last year or so, I was starting to feel like I could be starting pre-menopause early (just my luck, right?). My sex drive was pretty much gone and I felt bad about it. I mean… I still enjoyed write and reading erotica like normal, but sex itself just didn't interest me all that much. I wasn't sure how to approach it.

I can't really blame it on dysphoria because I didn't really know, though it might have subliminally been part of it. I didn't feel sexy or wanted (totally in my head, but that's a story for another time). I was also distracted with a lot of other things in my life.

My sex drive is now in high gear at least half the time. Idle hands can be the worst culprits! XD

In other news, no dryness or noticeable growth down there yet. And that's all I'm going to say for now.

Communication

So, I have a major problem with communicating with people. Typing here is not nearly as stressful as speaking with words coming out of my mouth face-to-face with another person or persons. Again, over the last few years I didn't feel like I could explain things to my husband in a way that he would understand. I thought he might hate me or make light of or dismiss everything that was going on in my head. Partially because he's so loving and supportive I never get a passionate answer from him either way. And because he's so laid back, a simple yes or no is easier for him than a lengthy discussion.

I also didn't want him to feel bad for not being able to help me when I was down or depressed. One of my biggest fears is disappointing or hurting people.

Getting to my point, I've felt more comfortable talking to him about things that I normally wouldn't bring up. Over the last couple of days, his acceptance of my transition has started to actually sink in. I feel better about sharing with him what is going on in my head: good or bad.

Life Happening

Now here are some general things that have been happening to me over the last two weeks.

We've been crazy busy at the shop. There are a lot of custom projects that need to get done in a short amount of time and the alterations are coming in fairly steadily as well. Business is good.

A few bouts of depression. Mostly happening when I'm home and feel I should be working. This is usual for my ADHD brain.

Also had a bout of inspiration. I'm now working on a few things and it should be going public in the next couple of weeks. I'm pretty excited!

Conclusion
That's it for today. Speaking of today. Some stuff has happened in the political realm today that was shocking and backwards to say the least. I don't want to go in depth about it now, but if you'd like to help support your trans friends in this trying time, you can check out TomboyX who is donating to The Trevor Project for every pair of undies sold! They're the most amazingly comfortable underwear I've ever worn!

Take care all. Have questions? Email me it comment below.

Days 8-10: Second Dose, Singing, and Update

Day 8: Wednesday

Wednesday was injection day. I got to take it right before choir practice and I did it all by myself!

We are practicing a large amount of music for inservice in August and Wednesday was the first rehearsal. Currently, I’m technically a mezzo-soprano, and I’ve been singing soprano in the choir up until now. My range usually goes all the way up to a high A (or B if I’m really warmed up). I can also get pretty low. I’ve enjoyed my nearly 3 octave range.

I know it won’t be right away that my voice changes but I felt myself being a little more skittish of the higher notes. a high F came out loud and clear. When moving up to the notes above that, my throat tightened. I could have warmed up a little more in the higher range but I still felt a little self-conscious about it.

It also could have been my allergies. I mowed part of my large yard Wednesday morning. It was a bad allergy day before that even started.

Other than that, I haven’t really had any issues with my voice. My throat has been a little sore, but again, that could just be from the allergies.

On another note, my skin is definitely oilier. Not by much, but just enough to be able to tell a difference. It’s getting oilier faster.

I’m also not getting cold as much as I use to and I’m sweating a little more. While that wasn’t really on the list, I do wonder if it could be caused by the Testosterone.

Day 9: Thursday

VERY busy day at work. Had a little bit of trouble starting my car, so I decided to switch parking places with my husband again to see if that would help. (My car needs a new fuel pump, which is causing me some issues on inclines)

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All the fittings went well and I got some alterations done. None of this is really all that relevant to the transition of course. There just wasn’t much to report on Thursday except for the fact that I couldn’t sleep.

Day 10: Friday

Friday is going good. Another busy day at work. Lots of fittings. After a long day at work, I’m currently winding down as I write this post to catch you all up.

I still need to grow enough balls to record my voice talking and singing for you all. It’s as much of me being shy and chicken as it is finding a good time to get alone and sing. Also, I need to pick a freaking song to sing. Any suggestions from you all? Leave them in the comments below! (or comment on Facebook, that works too)

 

Day 5-7: Social Interactions

Anyone that knows me personally knows I’m a full blown introvert. Might be hard to see considering I’m putting everything out here on this blog but trust me, typing it on my computer screen is a lot easier than giving all this information out face-to-face.

Day 5: Sunday

We went to play a table-top game called Shadowrun at a friend’s house. There were 6 kids there all together as we played and that turned out to be intense to say the least.

I had to be around a few people that either don’t know about my transition or just didn’t care to talk about it. I don’t feel the need to bring it up in most social situations unless it’s brought up or becomes an issue. I feel that everyone should be treated as a person, no matter their gender.

The misnaming and misgendering is not something that I really feel is important at this moment. This is mainly because I don’t hang around these people enough to really care what they think or do. Also, I’m not going to start an argument in someone else’s house when I’ve been invited over.

I’m still me.

Day 6: Monday

I was back to work today. But first! I had to go to an appointment with my general doctor.

The best part about this visit was that I had not seen them in 6 months, and I had not told them anything about the transition.

The visit was just a check up for my blood pressure medicine and the other meds in general. My blood pressure was the lowest it’s been in years (112/80!!) and I’m starting to wonder if it’s because of the testosterone or because of me feeling more emotionally balanced.

After my blood pressure and everything was checked, I let the nurse know that I was on Testosterone for my transition. She blinked at me. It was like a deer in headlights. She put it in and let me know to tell the nurse practitioner (I see her instead of the doctor at this office, which is fine).

When the NP came in, I told her. She gave me the deer in headlights look as well. I forgot my T at the shop, so I told her I’d email her the information on it when I got a chance.

I wasn’t sure what to expect. In all reality, I probably should have talked to my family doctor first before starting the treatments. I just never felt like they would know what to do. I wasn’t even sure how they’d react until I went Monday.

They said nothing negative, which is good, but I have a feeling I may end up finding another doctor in the future. They really had no idea how to react or what to do. I’m sure transitioning is not something a lot of patients do in my county. Or if they do, they don’t really tell anyone and might even go out of town to see a doctor of any kind.

Work on Monday was packed with stuff. I got a lot of work done on some custom projects I needed to take care of.

Day 7: Tuesday

Today is now Tuesday. I’d apologize for not posting since Saturday, but really I was just busy (obviously). Today went well. I worked on the custom project and had the fitting for it today.

I did manage to introduce myself as Zen without missing a beat though. 🙂

I’m pretty sure people having to repeat my name because it’s unusual will get a tad annoying, but it’ll be okay. I guess those of you with unique names have that problem all the time, huh?

Emotions and Summarizing

My emotions have been pretty even since that little dip Saturday. I feel more comfortable in my own skin now that I don’t have to pretend to be a girl all the time. I did wear a women’s cut t-shirt to work today. It’s one of the few t-shirts that was form fitting and looked good on me. I decided not to look in the mirror because I didn’t want to know if I looked too much like a girl in it. XD

 

Day 4: Stinging

So, I showered this morning and shaved all my body hair that I normally shave. I must say that this is the first day where I haven’t had dry skin after a shower since I was in high school. Its kind of nice!

I’m going to take a lot of reference pics tomorrow with hubby’s help so that I can have them to reference later. I’ll also try to manage to be alone enough to sing a little for you all.

Assholes with Wings

So I was playing D&D today at the church (yes, Dungeons and Dragons… Don’t judge! Lol). We went out for a break, and I was kicking a soccer ball around with one of the guys and the kids when I got stung on the finger… The finger!! It was a wasp we think (bloody asshole with wings). It burned like hell, but luckily I’m not allergic. A little alcohol, bandaid and some ice and I was fine.

Of course I was all like: Oh… I got stung. That sucks. I’ll be fine. Why wont it stop burning. That feels weird. Its not swelling, I’ll be okay. No… Its swelling. Why is the sun so bright. Oh, there’s a first aid kit? Yeah, guess I could use some stuff to make it feel better.

So that happened. Of course, not really sure what that has to do with the transition except I wonder if it would feel different with thicker skin.

Emotionally

While its pretty even, I do feel a little down today. It doesn’t seem to be anything specific. Just reality trying to slap me in the face. No crying. I don’t feel the need. Its basically just the feeling of ‘reality sucks’.

This isn’t a new feeling but it definitely isn’t as intense as it usually is.

No pics today. Should have some tomorrow. Have a great night, and again, let me know if you have any questions. 😊

Day 3: Anxiously Waiting

I keep expecting something to happen that’s noticeable. I know it’s not just going to happen overnight, but I still look in the mirror and expect to notice something. It’s silly and I know it. I’m just excited for the changes to happen.

I wasn’t jittery last night like I was the night before. I even slept well, with my normal sluggishness in the morning. Still not as much pain as usual, so that’s good.

My skin does feel a little oilier but I’m not sure if it is any more than usual. My skin can go from dry to oily in a day or two normally. I’ll continue to watch this and update.

Emotionally, I feel better. It seems a little more even, which is saying a lot for me. My emotions are usually all over the place. I’ve read that this happens. That others have noticed how much they don’t need to cry as much as before.

Before I go, here’s a picture of my hand for future comparison.


Keeping this short tonight. Let me know if you have any questions or anything! I should have the post about financial contributions sometime this weekend. Cya then!

Day 2: Smooth Sailing

It’s not that I expected any major changes today, I just thought I would share a little bit of information about what I experienced since the shot.

Last Night

If you remember in my post yesterday, I said that I was pretty excited all day. Trying to go to sleep last night was interesting. I was jittery for lack of a better term. It’s rare that I have a hard time going to sleep a full hour after taking my medication at night. This was a little different than what I had experienced before though.

And there have been occasions when I’ve been restless. My legs will literally twitch, kind of like restless leg syndrome but I’m still awake. Other times, I have experience just flat out insomnia. I’m usually unable to go to sleep or I am completely hyper focused on something (usually playing a game on my phone).

Last night, it was neither of those. I’m not sure if it was from the excitement or from the testosterone itself but it was more like a mild vibration all over my body. It felt good but it was just a tad annoying when I was trying to go to sleep.

Of course, I ended up snuggling up with the hubby in order to get warmer and go to sleep.

This Morning

This morning was pretty normal. I hurt just a little less than normal (I have arthritis, so I hurt every morning). I didn’t really want to get out of bed, but again, that is completely normal for me.

I do feel a little bit more awake than normal though I am fairly sure that is just an emotional reaction to starting the T treatments. (I’m also still really proud of myself that I stuck myself with a needle and gave myself my own injection.)

Other Thoughts

So I have been asked at least once (and I’m pretty sure a lot of you are actually curious) about how I’m able to afford the T treatments. I did answer that question in short form on Facebook but I feel it deserves it’s own blog post. I have been debating on whether or not to post the financial aspect of the T treatments but I have come to this conclusion:

I did a lot of research online about how much the treatments were going to cost. I was pretty sure that my insurance would not cover this and I was afraid to ask. When I did search, I found very little information about how much the treatments actually cost. The reason for this is probably because it depends on:

  • Where are you go
  • Your geological location
  • Your insurance, should you choose to have them pay for it if they’re able

The original information I found was pretty devastating. I actually gave up hoping to start T in the next couple of years.

Then I spoke one on one with a local transgender friend and they gave me hope. This is why I turn to Planned Parenthood.

In the next couple of days, I will have a full blog post that will go over in detail the financial contributions that I have to make, what led me to the decision to start HRT treatments, and I will give you all the information that I have found in my research and my personal experience.

Please comment below if you have any other questions regarding my transition. I understand and appreciate the curiosity from everyone. I have always been the person that was completely curious about everything knew but was afraid to ask questions because I thought my questions might offend someone. Comments made in ignorance or more likely to offend then questions made in order to seek the truth.

Day 1: My First Injection

So, I’ve been kind of buzzing all day. I’m really happy that I got my T today. I took my friend Dawn with me to make sure someone else knew how to do these injections. I’m scared of needles and a big puss sometimes.

We had to wait a bit because I got their really late (I blame Windows 10 but that’s a boring story for another time… maybe). I was the last person they saw. I got the rest of my blood drawn (lipids panel. They ended up redrawing everything though).

The Injection

The nurse was super cool and was completely on her game. When she brought in the T, I got a little nervous but she was pretty confident I could do the shot myself. Here’s how it went (my apologize to squeamish people. I’ll try not to talk about the actual injections after today unless something new arises):

Nurse: Now just hold it over your skin and let the needle sit on your skin.

Me: Okay… *nervously doesn’t want to touch the needle at all, timidly does it*

Nurse: Okay, on the count of three we’re going to push in, ready? 1…

Me: No! *is a big puss!*

Nurse: You can totally do this. *pauses* Alright, ready?

Me: Y-yeah… *stares at needle*

Nurse: 1… 2… 3…

Me: *pushes needle in and blinks*

Yeah… I just did that!

So yeah. The fun part is, I get to use a scary large needle to get the T out of the bottle. Then I switch needles to a tiny needle (maybe an inch long) that I can barely feel. As I push the T in, it has resistance because it’s so thick. Then I have to hold the needle steady for another 15 seconds to make sure it all goes in. Then a band-aid and I’m done!


Not that I can say I enjoy stabbing myself with a tiny needle, but at least it’s not agonizingly painful.

How I Feel After the Injection

I feel normal for the most part. I was pretty excited all day though. There’s a little euphoria to know that:

  1. I did my own injection!
  2. Started on my official transition journey!

I was just a little sore after the injection, but it was more annoying than anything, and went away after a few minutes.

I’m going to post once a day, even in it’s just a picture, to let everyone know what’s going on.

About HRT: Hormone Replacement Therapy

So I promised to share this information with you yesterday, and once again, in behind.

Before I begin, it looks like I shall have to wait until Wednesday for my T (testosterone). It seems the holiday has thwarted my plans. Planned Parenthood called and let me know. So I have to wait too more days. She said I could call Monday to see if it did come in.

Now, to the real purpose of this post. All the information about the treatment itself!

What is HRT?

HRT, or hormone replacement therapy, is the general term for the treatment of using hormones, estrogen or testosterone, for gender transition, or to increase that hormone in a person not transitioning.

For those transitioning, there are two types:

  • Masculinizing Hormone Therapy – This is the hormone replacement therapy that uses testosterone to help in the gender transition process when transitioning from female to male. This is, of course, what I will be taking.
  • Feminizing Hormone Therapy – This is the hormone replacement therapy that uses estrogen to help a male transition to a female.

What is Testosterone?

I’m hoping most people know what testosterone is, but just for clarification, it is the sex hormone that causes the development of masculine characteristics. Those assigned male at birth produce this hormone during puberty. Those assigned female at birth produce estrogen, which is the sex hormone that causes the development of feminine characteristics.

As a medication, testosterone is a steroid and a controlled substance. Testosterone, which I will typically call T, has risks, benefits, and side effects as with all drugs. I would like to take a moment today to share about each of these.

Benefits of Testosterone

The benefits of T include:

  • Voice becomes deeper
  • May grow facial hair
  • Body hair will be thicker and grow faster
  • The clitoris will get bigger (probably the most interesting one on the list)
  • Muscles will get bigger and stronger
  • Menstrual periods will probably stop (nurse practitioner said about 6 months in)
  • Fat will leave the butt, hips, and thighs, ‘moving’ to your belly (oh no!)

Risks of Testosterone

The risks include:

  • Increasing your red blood cell count
  • Increasing the amount of fat and/or cholesterol in your blood
  • Increasing the chance of diabetes
  • Harming the liver, which is rare

Risks are higher if you smoke, are overweight, or have a family history of heart disease. Because this is the first generation that is taking T for their whole lives, long-terms risks are widely unknown.

Side Effects of Testosterone

There are a few side effects. They look a lot like side effects of puberty actually, and growing up in general:

  • Acne
  • Thicker and more oily skin
  • The hair on your head may get thinner or fall out (also known as mail pattern baldness)
  • Mood changes
  • Increased sex drive
  • Vaginal dryness

How Long Does T Take to Work?

Some of the changes take a month or more. Other can take around 2 to 5 years. This is depends on the person as well as any other factors in their lives. This is part of what I’m going to document in this blog so you can have some insight for what happens in my journey.

How Long Do You Need to Take Testosterone?

This is a forever thing to keep some of the changes. The changes that go away if you stop taking T include:

  • Increased sex drive
  • Changes to your body fat
  • Changes to your strength
  • Faster hair growth

The rest of the changes will probably not go away even if you stop taking T.

Pregnancy While On T

So, the question that most trans men or curious women want to know is: Will you be able to get pregnant while on T?

The answer is mostly uncertain. You could get pregnant, or you may never be able to get pregnant again. Because of this, birth control is needed to prevent pregnancy just in case. If you do get pregnant while taking T, you most stop testosterone.

That is most of the information that I have on T. Let me know if you have any questions below. I’ll answer anything I can, and I’ll find the answers if I don’t currently know them. Until next time!

My First HRT Appointment 

All my nervousness was really for nothing!

So, I had my appointment yesterday for the HRT. It was probably the best doctor’s visit I have ever experienced. Before I go into detail, I do want to point out that this is MY experience specifically. Your experience or the experiences someone else has went through may be different. I do go into my costs at the end as well. Obviously this is what I experienced. Your costs may be different depending on location and what kind of doctor you visit. This is NOT a end-all description by any means. I’m just here to share my experiences.

Previous Experiences

Let me first tell you about my previous experiences just a bit. I DREAD going to the doctor. It’s another bill that I will be behind on. Another doctor that will not take me seriously. Another thing wrong with my aging body.

Just going for a 6 month check up is nerve wracking for me even if there’s no changes.

This Experience

We went to Planned Parenthood for my HRT visit. I went with them because of two reasons:

  1. They came highly recommended by a transgender friend
  2. I could schedule my appointment online via their website.

I was actually surprised that it wasn’t a hidden option on their site. They have a full section about HRT treatments and how to support your friend or family member that is transgender. It was very reassuring. Please feel free to visit Planned Parenthood online. They offer a lot of great information.

The one I went to was very easy to get to. The facility was a stand alone building, which I wasn’t expecting in that part of the city. The building was nice and there was maybe one other person in the waiting room. The lady at the front desk was super sweet, and refrained from using either name or pronouns until I had filled out information confirming pronouns and name preference.

After I had everything filled out, she brought up payment options and explained specific costs and what, in her experience, my insurance would or would not pay for. We discussed all of my options and I opted to attempt to run my insurance for the visit and blood work and self pay for the T (short for Testosterone). I’ll go over payment in a moment though.

I would also like to note that I only had to fill out a piece of paper that was 3″-by-5″ max with information. I was expecting to have to fill out that booklet that most doctor’s offices give you. Not at Planned Parenthood! At least not for the HRT appointments.

They called me back pretty quickly (I was actually 15 minutes early so I had to wait a little). Once in the back, they let me read over the informed consent form about what effects the T would have on my body.

The nurse practitioner that saw me was also incredibly nice. Pronouns were on point (even if I’m still pretty lax about them). She was knowledgeable and I got to ask all the questions I was unsure of, as well as talk about my concerns and what I had found online.

I had some fun teasing my husband but I asked him several times if he had any questions or objections. He had none, or at least none he could think of at the moment. So everything’s good on that end.

They did blood work to check several things that they will need to monitor while I am on T. While I’m slightly scared of needles, they were careful to consider that. I didn’t eat before I went to the appointment, so they helped me get a little more hydrated before they drew my blood.

We did hit one little snag while I was there. We were all ready to do the T treatment and they ended up having to order it! XD

So I did not get my first treatment Thursday, but I’ll be going back on Monday for the treatment and for some extra blood work since they couldn’t get enough out of me.

Types of Treatments

So with all of that said, the nurse practitioner did go over all the options for T treatments:

  • Self-injections, administered every two weeks
  • Patch, hard to get, absorption isn’t great
  • Gel, also hard to get, absorption is iffy
  • Cream, also hard to get, absorption is iffy as well

They obviously prefer the self-injections. I’ve talked to another person about to take T and the doctor they went to prefers the gel. It’s a preference that could vary by doctor or person.

I’ll be talking about the self-injections, since that’s what I’ll be taking. And yes, I’m scared of needles, but I guess I’ll have to get over that. I have a friend that has promised to help me out with that.

Here is some quick info on the self-injections like I will be taking:

  • Injections seem to have the most even absorption into the body
  • Injections are the cheapest option (my prescription will be $100 for 10ml, but it will last me for about 6 months)
  • The first injections will be .5ml (if I remember correctly) every two weeks
    • After my 3 month follow-up, the dose could increase

I’ll know the dose for sure Monday. It didn’t stick in my brain because we didn’t get to do it. 🙂

That’s all for now. I’ll go over all the information I learned about T tomorrow. Until then, remember! We’re all human.

Tomorrow’s the Day!

Well, technically it’s today, but I haven’t been able to get to sleep yet. In just 12 hours I will be at planned parenthood having my initial appointment for HRT, or Hormone Replacement Therapy. 

Here’s what little I know about it at the moment:

  • The therapy replaces estrogen with testosterone (or vice versa).
  • It is used for those who are transgender and also for those with certain complications where their hormones are out of whack.
  • It comes in a shot, pill, gel, or patch. 
  • It can be administered in various amounts. 
  • The affects of the hormone administered vary from person to person, but can affect voice, muscular structure, fat distribution, minor bone structure, hair growth and texture, sexual organs, and emotional and mental behaviors.
  • For gender purposes, most insurances will not cover HRT. 

How I Feel Now

Emotionally, I’m a mess. I have had a rough week but it has nothing to do with my transition. I’m excited to begin treatments, but I’m not sure what my finances will limit. I hope to gain insight into that tomorrow.

Physically, I feel like my body is anticipating it. I grew a pretty hefty goatee over about 5 days and it’s coming in fuller now than it use to. I typically just shave it, but I forgot my razor on the Ohio trip over the weekend and it was interesting to see it growing out. Will I actually grow out my facial hair after T treatments? I’m not sure. Part of me thinks it would be cool to have a hipster goatee, and another part of me doesn’t even like facial hair. Lol

I am really looking forward to my breasts shrinking. They can’t go away fast enough. 

I’m curious as to how my voice, specifically my singing voice, will sound once the T starts to change it. I have done some research and starting out with a high dive of hormones can actually ruin your vocal cords which is detrimental to a singer, so I’ll be opting for a lower dose to start with, which will be bitter sweet. 

I’m of to bed now, but I will post again tomorrow to divulge all the info.